Tac Talks with Nebula Award-winning author Samantha Mills about her debut novel THE WINGS UPON HER BACK
We welcome the Nebula, Locus, and Sturgeon Award winner Samantha Mills to the latest Tac Talk, an occasional series of essays by Tachyon creatives. In this piece, Sam shares a letter with readers about her debut novel THE WINGS UPON HER BACK.
Dear Reader,
The Wings Upon Her Back was several years in the making. I was pregnant when I started it, terrified that I was watching my country descend the slippery slope of extreme nationalism. Now that baby is in first grade and—well, some things have improved, but we’re still on the slope.
I wanted to start with a familiar fantasy framework: the warrior who is cast out and must find new meaning fighting for the right cause. (Yes, I did mainline Xena: Warrior Princess as a kid, why do you ask?) And then I wanted to dig deeper into the psychology of it. I was thinking about intergenerational trauma and cycles of abuse. I was thinking about hurt people hurting people and how rapidly fear can turn into fascism. I was thinking about how hard it is to break free of this, when it’s all you’ve ever known.
I wound up with three stories. There is Zenya, a girl whose greatest dream is to earn a warrior’s wings and defend her city. There is Zemolai, who is Zenya all grown up, cast out of her home and trying to stop the militant leader she helped bring into power. And there is a third story, told in the epigraphs and interludes—a hint that the seeds of all this pain were planted much earlier.
Ultimately, this is a book about disillusionment and finding hope again on the other side. I wrote an entire city abandoned by its gods—mysterious beings who bestowed great gifts on humanity and then went to sleep—a city which then fell into a state of paranoid isolationism, cutting off the outside world and building towers to the heavens in their quest to regain the love of those gods. Poor Zemolai is only one thread in the fabric of a traumatized nation state.
I was inspired by authors like Kameron Hurley and N.K. Jemisin, who do not shy away from writing older women worn down by their past mistakes, and who don’t mind playing with form to get there. This book is for anyone who has felt their life spiraling out of control; anyone seeking to break the cycle of trauma and abuse; and anyone, really, who prefers their philosophy served up with a hefty side of sky battle.
I hope you enjoy the result. Thank you so much for taking a look.